No one can get in the way of what I'm feeling.

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I hate you.

" Hi. I actually do not know where the hell I would start this message. But since your messages are bugging me on all my internet accounts, here's my reply dear. Yes, it's been months since I stopped texting you. I do not even know why. I even stopped talking to you. I do not even know why, too. All I know was by the time you were able to speak out to our classmates and friends, the REAL you came out. Yehess! The REAL you that I wish I wasn't able to discover. I don't know why the hell I suddenly felt annoyed when you speak your mind, it was as if you know better. I do not know why I felt super inis when you make your english comments. Haha. Shitness. I hate it when you come up to me out of nowhere and how I wished that you had never popped out. I hate it when I am confessing something to my girlfriends and when you hear it you would join the conversation. I feel so stupid not even greeting you. I feel uncomfortable whenever you talk to me and I answer you not looking at your very eyes. I hated it when we got there. I hated those moment of ours. Sometimes, I wish to talk to you, just to make things clear, but i do not know why the bruised pride of mine still prevail over my soft side. Sometimes, I just wished you would just shut up so I won't notice what you do just to get my attention. Sometimes my hidden self is asking you 'what do you want from me?' so for a little time you would disappear. I hate the thought of you making everything to appear good to me. I hate it when you use my friends to come up to me. I simply HATE it. I hate everything I knew from you. Sometimes, I tell myself, how I wish I never shared myself to you. That's how worst our friendship became. You're not aware huh? of course not. Because you're selfish. I do not have any good reasons but I found you selfish. Really. Stupidness. Hays. And now I know you're thinking why am I like this, why am I acting like Im someone better, why am I not being me. Simply because, I got mad when you show off your "other" side. Because I HATE WHAT YOU BECOME. I hate it. I disgust you so much from that day. Remember when you call me up, i super detest that call because I was busy then and you were telling "Busy ka ba? Bakit parang lagi kang busy?" and when I answered "Oo, busy ako ngayon. " you told me a lot of stories. Bingi ka ba o bingi ka? Shaaat! Haist. And now I am confessing everything to you through my blog. I hope you will understand my side but I know you wont because you will think that what I have written here has another story which is the version of yours. Ampness. Labo. But, anyway, Im cool now..."

"The first part are all my emotions written by my thoughts so you would at least feel how I really hated you. But for now, I am glad that at least before the sem ends, we we're good and I didn't feel much pressure on you na. At last you knew your limits. I just want to say sorry if the time came I stopped approaching you. i know you need a friend. That was what we need. Im sorry if I never became the friend you would wished for. Im sorry if I was ignoring you. Im sorry if I left you. Im sorry for not being a good classmate. Im sorry for not being a good 'sister'. Im sorry if I failed to meet your standards. Im sorry if I was cold. Im sorry for being rude to you. Im sorry for hating you. Im so sorry. And I mean it. Let's get everything started AGAIN. Reborn and refresh ourselves. Leave those dull moments behind. I know we're still friends but not like before. But I know by this time, everything will be better and clearer. Let's make everything real. Forget the stories behind. Forget the childish acts. Let us be us. I want to make things na. Hopefully we're better off as friends. Just make it to that point. And before I end this message, I just wanted to say that even though I hated you that much, I never regretted being friends with you. Thank you very much for being one. :) Oh and by the way, goodluck with our careers. Im glad we've been engaging on the same course for half of the term. :) "

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PS. never let anyone know I was pertaining to YOU. kei kei? :>

And now was the real end of my 1st sem. Hays, I got my grades yesterday and I enrolled na rin for the second semester. Aion, I was so glad na I had a 1.72 GWA for the 1st sem. As in sobrang happy!!! I even came to the point that I thought it wasn't really my card because the grades were super high. Haha. 2.25 lang ung lowest. I mean, did I really study that hard?? :> haha. Onaman noh!!! Siguro di ko lang maalala kung gaano kahirap ako nagaral to get my grades. Super duper happy talaga. Our department secretary even told me na i-try iapply for the dean's lister. :D Haha. Kasi baka umabot daw ung grades ko. Anyway, naiisip ko tuloy na mukang makakalipat na ko ng UP next year. AyOS! :>

Pero may mga maiiwan ako sa old school ko...kaya parang ayoko na rin magtransfer if ever... Hays... I don't want to give up my happiness T_T . Right?? If I could do it, why can't I just continue?? Hays, bahala na talaga. :) Basta for now Im happy with the outcome of my efforts. :D

Hahaha. :D

ahaha. :D

Haha. I do not know where to start my post but lemme have this opportunity to thank everyone from my block. My half-year wouldn't be this memorable without you guys. Its been a while since we had our first day for the first sem and everyone of us is trying to get back to the highschool times. Yes, I have missed my highschool so much that I didn't pay attention too much for college but I really had a great time spending it with you. I felt like I was back in my "teen" days when I met all of you. I may not have been so close with everyone in the class but I know a little of something of out of everyone. Haha. Shitness. So weird but I got to discover secrets from you. But it will be kept. I promise. :) We do not really know if we're going to be mates again the next sem... marami nang mag shishift jan. Pero sa remaining people whom I had my laughs and stories, good luck sa tin! :D Hopefully we'll be able to finish this whole college thingy. Have a memorable sem break! :)

Kahit ang pangit-pangit ko dito... hehe. At kahit mukha naman ciang haggard. :)) Hays....

Don't come and go.

Well. It has been a hectic week for me. Even though I really wanted to update my blog, I couldn't because of my long list of work. Grabe... and that doesn't end up today. I about to start our Fil 1 thesis that SHOULD be finished by tomorrow. Oha! San ka nakakita nun... It will be passed on Monday na! Can you spell PUYATAN??? I also have to make a project on my CS 131. Monday din and deadline. Saya noh??? Make it even happier. I have to make 5 programs run on JAVA today and pass it on tuesday! Read my notes on Alge and CS 131 for FINALS quiz. I also have to review for my finals on Tuesday. I should be starting today right??? You happy with that?? :D Smile. :)


I guess I should get going. But I want to share my happiness here. Last thursday, we won as Champion on the annual freshman cheering competition. It was super duper fun. Some pics are on my multiply. But its private so I took some for my blog so anyone could make a glimpse on what I am talking about. Our cheerdance wasn't yet uploaded on YouTube. Mejo may problem pa kasi bago lang ung videocam ng classmate ko. hehe.... Aiun. So BB muna... I have to clear up some stuffs.... :D